When it comes to running I don't always feel Tall, I feel BIG.
On more than one occasion I have been called the "Big Girl" generally used in the context of a Basketball practice but it has stuck with me. I have broad shoulders, muscular thighs, big bones and I often tip the scales 190-205lbs. When I line up at a race I look around hoping to find someone who resembles my build, generally I am much Taller (Bigger) than the field of female runners.
Is there a normal female runner??
I don't think so. At the larger races you will see women in all shapes, sizes, heights, weights, ages... There may be the average female runner, but in general there is no mold. I have always wondered what it would feel like to be "small" and go for a run. When training for Boston I often ran with Janna and Tink... It is easy to see how I would have liked to swap bodies mid run. Yes I have the LONG stride, but I also have to pack the body that comes with the legs.
At Hood to Coast my teammates and the ladies on team Nuun were fit and fast. While I normally feel pretty confident I found myself fixating on my tummy lapping over my spandex. I am not about to rip off my shirt and run in a sports bra, I am too big for that, but I would love to know what it feels like to rip off my shirt and feel 100% comfortable.
My friend Amy texted me while I was at the Boston Marathon, she is my height, she said "It looks like you at a Gymnastics meet." She was not meaning anything offensive to my shorter stature buddies, but it is very apparent that I am BIGGER than most.
To be Tall for me is also to be Big. This is the body I was given and most of the time I am happy with that.. But there are days... like anyone else when I wonder how it must feel to be a different size.. I am not sure why this is wearing on my mind today, probably because I am struggling with dropping weight and my knee is not holding up to the extra poundage. Probably because my pants are a bit tight today.
I love my life and the woman I have become. I am blessed to have a husband who adored me at 265 as much as he did at 185. I am LUCKY to have friends who help me to feel like I FIT in regardless of if I am feeling BIG every now and then.
- What title have you given yourself, or been given to you by others, that has defined you?
- Do you ever dream of what it would be like to have a different body?