6'0 Tall wife to Muscle Man, mother of 3, full time career woman, with an addiction to running wherever her size 10's will take her.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Solo


Last night I thought about going to run with the Fleet Feet Run Club to meet some new friends, but they meet at 6:30 on a DARK trail, I didn't know if anyone would be there who ran my pace and I did not want my time with my family eaten up waiting. Instead on set out at about 5:45PM to run around my neighborhood.

OBSERVATIONS:

-There is an influx of Halloween decorations, I took mental note of the houses I plan to AVOID with the Little Studs next Monday.

-Running when my dinner is not settled is GROSS..

-Smells of dryer exhaust, Dinner and wet leaves.

-I could see my breath but I did not feel cold

-The sun went down and it was dim, I could see my shadow in the Street signs when a car passed.

-There was a game on the field at the nearby High School, the scoreboard and lights gave me a feeling of nostalgia.

-My Knee felt horrible, every step was labored and painfull. I know I need to get it checked out, but I fear what the Dr. will say.

-I felt heavy...remembering a time when running felt "easy" I wish I could get to that level of fitness again.

-I SPRINTED up and down the hills, longing to feel SPEED. I played with SPEED during my run not able to hold it long.

-An Ambulance passed, and later a Firetruck, headed toward the High School, I prayed that all was OK.

-I also prayed for Harmony and her family, for Amanda and Chelsea...I feel helpless when my friends are struggling.

-It started to get dark, I looped around my neighborhood to get in 4 miles, then went home.

I NEEDED this solo run. To connect with my surroundings, my body, my thoughts.. Running is not easy right now. I feel heavy and I am in pain. My schedule is busy leaving little time for a consistent running schedule. I don't have any solid Running goals or plans. What I realized last night is that regardless of how HARD it is right now, one thing is certain.

I LOVE TO RUN!!!


And at the end of the day that is truly what matters..

A Runner Runs..

I don't need to worry about Pace.
I don't need to worry about my Weekly Mileage.
I don't have to stress about not having a Training Plan.
I don't need to have a race or BIG Event on the spectrum.
I don't need the pressure I just need to RUN, when I can and to love it...

Running Solo helped me come to this conclusion...

20 comments:

Jen said...

Get your knee checked out! SERIOUSLY! Solo runs can be nice!

abbi said...

I love solo runs, I tend to need them to stay sane. Hope everything is OK with your knee. I'm pretty much in denial that there is something wrong with my foot so I understand!!

Run with Jess said...

Solo runs are SO important to me. I feel like a snob sometimes telling no to friends... but sometimes a girl just needs her thoughts to herself.

Journey Of A Canuck Mom On The Run said...

I am a solo runner. It is important to me. I am constantly dealing with reality and others emotions as a Registered Nurse on Labor and Delivery, a full-time student, a mom, and a wife. So the quiet time is all that I want when I run. It is how I cope. Please get your knee checked out. I understand that fear and am not much a doctor person myself, but it is important and may help you run a bit better. Big hugs your way Tall Mom.

(Just) Trying is for Little Girls said...

I like how running alone helps me pull my thoughts together. Way to make this a good one, buddy.

track coach and adorable wife said...

That crappy little knee! Boo on it! Glad you still love to run though!

Shellyrm ~ just a country runner said...

Praying for you knee. Do get your knee looked at so you can get back to enjoying your run.

Solo runs are great for reflecting on loads of things. Glad you go out and mostly enjoyed reconnecting with yourself.

Marlene said...

Sounds like just what you needed. I love running through the 'hood during dinner time and smelling all the smells... although some make my stomach turn! The best/worst (depends on the day) is the smell of bacon on weekend mornings!

Ali Mc said...

I agree go get your knee checked! sounds like a great run...I love solo runs and I also love your list of lessons. I hate running when my food isnt settled :P yuck

Kerrie T. said...

Go get your knee checked, lady. The sooner you do, the sooner you'll be back out there. And maybe it won't be as bad as you think.

robinbb said...

I agree with everyone, get that knee checked. You will heal the sooner you do it.

And I love alone runs after I have been running with friends a lot. Time to clear the head.

TNTcoach Ken said...

Don't worry about that knee, that's why God gave you two! It will heal itself, like those robots do in the movies.......... LOL

Christine said...

So happy you were able to get some "me time" in. Hope your knee feels much better now!

5 Miles Past Empty said...

Glad you got your solo run! And so glad you love to run!!!! I hate that you are in pain! I've been feeling too many twinges and aches lately. It's not a fun feeling.

Keep running my friend!!!!! I wish I could come and go on a solo + 1 run with you. I need to reconnect with someone who loves to run....

Love you!!!

Stacy said...

I'm a solo runner. In the early morning, in the dark, with my breathing and footfalls and thoughts to keep me company. I reduce stress, come up with good ideas, find solutions to problems and come home happy on my solo runs.

ps - get your knee checked out. Not knowing is the worst.

Jess said...

I love your honesty. Awesome for just getting out there and getting it done!

XLMIC said...

Knee...doctor... now. Mom says.

Love this post. Felt like I was there with you... I love running at night.

Fair Weather Runner said...

sometimes running solo, and with no goal in sight, is the best possible thing you can do. i realized it is far to easy to get caught up in running goals and lose the enjoyment. plus reconnecting with your thoughts, body, etc is far more important. hang in there, keep running for the love of it, my friend.

TX Runner Mom said...

I love my solo runs, too. Sometimes there is nothing better than being left alone with nothing but your thoughts and the sound of your feet hitting the pavement. Hope the knee is okay!

Molly said...

I hope everything is okay with your knee!