6'0 Tall wife to Muscle Man, mother of 3, full time career woman, with an addiction to running wherever her size 10's will take her.

Monday, October 17, 2011

1 Year

It has been 1 Year since my Dad passed away suddenly due to an undiagnosed Heart Condition, I like to say his Heart was too big for his body. I have felt him with me often, most often when I am running. I struggled during the Boston Marathon and he was there in spirit to help me reach the finish (Report HERE.) I often find myself going to a dark place of sadness but the one thing I CAN do is pass on his Legacy through my SMILE... As you can see from the picture above my Smile came from Dad.

I know that many of my posts this year have included notes on my Dad, Grief is a real thing, this Blog is my journal and I don't hide how I feel, the ups and the downs. My family has held strong, my Mom especially, she inspires me daily.

My advice is to LIVE each day to the fullest and be sure to tell the people you LOVE how you feel. LIFE is shorter than you think.. This Year has passed so quickly. My plan for 2012 is ever evolving what I do know is that I am going to focus on passing on his LEGACY, giving my heart permission to think ONLY of the great memories and to SMILE.

  • I love you Dad and today my Dimples shine for you!!!

24 comments:

Shellyrm ~ just a country runner said...

A wonderful tribute to your dad and a needed reminder to us all.
Big Hugs!

Elizabeth said...

I also lost my father and it's a tough thing. I feel him frequently when I run and I plan to do a marathon before I turn 40 (I'm 38 now) raise money and donate it either to the American Cancer Society (he passed due to lung cancer) or to St. Jude (a charity close to his heart). Maybe I'll just split the money. Anyway, I just wanted to say I know how bad it can suck sometimes but I try to just think that he has never really left as he always is in my heart and in my son's expressions occasionally. :)

MotherRunner said...

It's been one year and two weeks since I lost my dad unexpectedly to a stroke. It's so hard every day, and I can say that I all of the things I thought I knew about grief didn't even come close to what my family has been experiencing the past twelve months.

Hugs from one mama to another.

We are Ben and Rebecca said...

Tall Mom, I remember when this happened. My heart goes out to you and your family, even now. Thank you for being true to us, your readers in your journey.

Jess @ Blonde Ponytail said...

Hugs and thinking of you today Mel.

Kate said...

Thinking of you today, Mel. I lost my dad suddenly nearly 18 years ago, and I always note that anniversary. I still miss him, but the pain isn't so sharp and the memories are sweet. I hope that for you, too.

fancy nancy said...

I remember Mel your posts about your Dad and appreciate your honesty with how you are grieving him. One of the things that shines through all of this is how much love your family has for each other! I know you adore your Dad and that is a legacy you can pass on to your children! My prayers are with you as you navigate this day.

Shelley said...

Thinking of you and your family today, Mel.

Zaneta said...

Hugs to you Mel!
it's been 5 years since I lost my grandma (my best friend) and It's still hard... but she left behind a legacy...
Same as your dad :)

Michelle said...

Just wanted to send big hugs to you Mel!!

Elizabeth said...

Such a good message in your post. I love your honesty. Thinking of you today and sending hugs your way!

Kayla said...

Thinking of you today, Mel! Sending lots of hugs your way today!!!

Jill said...

Thinking of you today as you reflect on the last year and all the years you had with your dad! So many of our friends have lost their parents this year or someone very close to them...it's so hard.

Keep smiling friend! A run...lets do it. Maybe in a couple weeks on a Saturday?

April said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!
Beautiful tribute to honor your father!

MCM Mama said...

{{HUGS}} He'd be so proud of you!

5 Miles Past Empty said...

(((((((hugs and squeezes))))))))

I hope I can feel the same in one year....You inspire me Mel, and motivate me to smile, even when I don't want to. Keep journaling your thoughts and we'll keep encouraging and supporting you.

LOVE YOU!

Marlene said...

Tears!

I'm glad you are smiling and remembering Dad fondly today, it's how he would have wanted it. {hugs}

Nan said...

I lost my Dad four years ago. I think of him most and feel him closest when I run. :) Thank you for a beautiful post.

chattynatty said...

What a meaningful post. Strange how tragedy can give you a different perspective on everyday life. Glad to see you are using Grief and the loss of your dad in a positive way. Hope the memories of your dad and your "dimples" make this day easier for you and your family.

XLMIC said...

This is so sweet and it is so evident how special your relationship was/is. ((((hugs)))) on this difficult day, Mel. Thinking of you oftener than you know :)

Rene' said...

Mel....I think of you often and know this has been a tough year. The Boston post was honestly one of the best posts I have read. I felt Tall Dad right there with you. Big hugs coming to you from NH!

Canuck Mom said...

I understand you completely and my blog is my journal as well to help me through those grieving moments. For my father it was primary brain cancer, but it was so unexpected that 4 years after his passing I still have ver difficult days. Some tears, running, and big hugs from my husband and kids help me through those days. Many prayers with you. I always feel that in essence you are kindred spirit because I can relate to your blog posts in many ways.

track coach and adorable wife said...

Love you Mel! You can't be anything but an absolute inspiration and source of pride for your papa!

Beth said...

Your post today made me cry, and I am not a crier. You have a beautiful spirit I am sure you are making your father proud.