6'0 Tall wife to Muscle Man, mother of 3, full time career woman, with an addiction to running wherever her size 10's will take her.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

SCATTERBRAINED

I believe I am reliable and responsible person. Over the years my mind has been tested, lack of sleep in college, pregnancy brain, lack of sleep as a new Mom, overly busy at work, etc.. During those times I found myself forgetting simple things and becoming a total procrastinator. For the last few months I have been COMPLETELY SCATTERBRAINED..

  • EXAMPLES:
-G HERE sent me the Born Fit Traveling Shirt forever ago and I have not completed the task or mailed on to the next person.

-I still have not added the last 40 people to the Tall mom Spreadsheet, have not replied to emails regarding the club lately, have not sent out motivation to the 1,000+++ club, updated my line on the spreadsheet or checked on upcoming races for clubbers.

-I have not written a page in my book since October.

-Could not wrap my head around planning parties for our Little Studs birthdays so we did next to nothing.

-Have changed my Boston training plan 8 times.

-I have 3 Giveaways to host..keep talking about it but don't do it.

-The pile of 1,000 Club Bumper Stickers has not been sent

-Birthdays, Anniversaries, etc... Cards I should have sent but didn't..

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??

Thankfully I can fake it just well enough to perform on a daily basis.. I am used to being 4 steps ahead, so when I am 3 steps behind it still works out.. My mental capacity will return. They say time heels all wounds, but apparently 4 months has not been enough time for me to find my Brain.. In the mean time... PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME :)

  • I NEED A BAND AID..Why? My run recap from Daily Mile....

OUCH- I spent time icing and caring for my Achilles this weekend and neglected my right Hamstring. I was reminded from step #1.. What should have been a tempo run turned to a hobble stride journey.. Maybe I should have turned back and rested??

Miles 1-3: My leg was tight and I was compensating by shortening my steps..

Stretched at Mile 3- It felt a little better.

Miles 3-5: I was able to fully stride and run normal, hopeful that I was able to work out the soreness i continued..

Miles 5-6: OUCH OUCH OUCH!! OK guess I better rest..

Why is this happening? Maybe I need to rethink my training plan and rest days? When I got back to the office I used Arctic Ease Wrap HERE and it feels so good to have some cold compress and be sitting..

**Smells on the Run: Rain, pipe smoke, chicken noodle soup and grass.

**Funny Things: Countless men with umbrellas and it was not raining, and one dude with very small hand weights focused on pumping those arms.

  • I leave you with a quote: I've decided that the stuff falling through the cracks is confetti and I'm having a party! ~Betsy Cañas Garmon

HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!

24 comments:

TMB @ RACING WITH BABES said...

Hugs Buddy! I think your funk/scatterbrain/whatever is perfectly normal. I've told you this before, but one day, something will change and take you out of it. You'll find your way again. I'm here for you!

Amy said...

Mel, if there is anything I can do to help, please let me know! I think you are doing an AMAZING JOB! You do all this on top of working a full-time job, being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and an awesome friend. I still don't know how you do everything you do!

Stacey said...

Ahh, I know that feeling well! Procrastination has been my middle name lately! "Faking it just well enough to perform on a daily basis" is something I think we all do..it is just part of life sometimes. It will get better. (it has to right?)

I love the smells on the run...(:

Have a great day Mel!

fancy nancy said...

You have had more than a few things going on for you lately...give yourself the grace to get back in your grove! Last year I was going through a lot and remember being almost on autopilot. Finally have come out of the clouds! Those who know you love you and that is what counts!!!

Unprofessional said...

I'm in a funk too!! I'm trying to figure out if it's a physical or mental thing, but I'm pretty sure it's mental!

I've been trying to do some running reading to get my head back in the game! I'm going easy on myself this week-no speedwork or tempo runs, just RUN. I love that quote you have!!!

Keep at it-after browsing through your blog, it's obvious you've got SO MUCH going on! It's easy to be hard on yourself and feel inadequate for not staying on top of everything, but take a moment to step back and look at what all you HAVE done-I think you'll be pleasantly surprised with yourself-you're AMAZING!!

I RUN LIKE A GIRL said...

Hey Scatterbrain, don't be so hard on yourself. You are a VERY busy person - trust me, everyone will understand :) Keep on Partying - hope you are awesome!

Fair Weather Runner said...

hang in there my friend, you have a LOT on your plate. i don't know how you do it all. i'm a flake and don't do half of all of that. you're amazing! until then, baby steps and BREATHE. it's okay to not do it all, all the time...

wojoku said...

I don't even want to start listing the things I'm behind on; I'd prefer to assume it's a short list. haha

You'll be fine, just like you said. Don't let it get you down and you'll be back 4 steps ahead before you realize it.

And since you mentioned smells on the run, I live across the street from some sort of coffee factory. So every morning when I go out running, I smell coffee grinds. I can't wait for the snow to melt so I can get out to the parks with some fresh air!

Chelsea said...

At work, someone filled me in on a conversation I had with them before I left...and I don't remember a single word of it.

There's a guy who smokes his pipe near where I stretch after lunch runs. I find it oddly comforting & lovely.

Julie D. said...

Hang in there! i think all you handle is plain amazing. Praying that as you continue to walk through your grief you will be patient with yourself and that it will get better for you!

Stephanie said...

Sounds like a lot to juggle! I'm right there with ya! I'm totally using that quote sometime! I LOVE it!!

marathonmaiden said...

hang in there! everything will get done in its own time.

Shells said...

You have a lot going on in your life these days. It's okay!!! Don't forget to take care of YOU, too! If that means a short run to take care of tired legs, that's okay. Boston will totally survive. If that means a longer run because you have time and it feels good, that's okay, too! Boston will still survive.

I love that quote. Another (and related) fave: "I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once!" From unknown (and if anyone can help me out, that would be great. I always like to cite my sources.)

TNTcoach Ken said...

I always wondered how you kept things together....... Just do what U can!

Run with Jess said...

Hang in there! I totally feel ya... I'm a primo for having too many things on my plate and then stressing out about it. I mean right now I should be attacking the to-do list, but instead I'm reading blogs?!?!

Marlene said...

I love that confetti quote. So cute! Have a party! :)

Even the best of us can't hold it all together sometimes and may I just say, you do an EXCELLTN jog of keeping all of your balls in the air. Sometimes, something has to give.

{HUGS}

Rose said...

This pretty much describes me all the time. I have no advice, but I totally feel you.

The Unexpected Runner said...

Don't sweat the small stuff...it's my survival mantra! (&procrastination is my middle name ;-D)

Kate said...

Cute quote!

Hang in there...most of these things aren't going anywhere. Be patient with yourself. You're plenty amazing on a regular basis, scatterbrained or not.

Jess @ Blonde Ponytail said...

I am sprinkling virtual confetti on you! I think you are pretty freaking amazing, and don't know how you do it all. You are the only one that knows your brain may be in a couple different places!

You rock Mel!!

Tricia said...

Aw man I feel ya! Hubs was just commenting to me how scattered brained I've been the last few months. So much going on its hard to wrap my brain around.

Maybe we need to simplify our life.

racing dawn said...

you're not alone sister...

sometimes i think i just need a really good nap to get rid of the fog... :)

hang in there...

Zoë said...

You have every right to be scatterbrained. It happens to everyone. You are always so on top of everything that you probably just need a break. :) Hang in there, dude.
Take care of that hammy!!

5 Miles 2 Empty said...

THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU!!!! You are doing an amazing job of taking care of yourself and your family. You need to cut yourself some slack. And don't take on anything else until you are ready! Four steps ahead is not for you right now, so don't hold your head low about that. Even three steps behind is better than most. I seem to always be a 100 steps behind and a dollar short. =/


Fake it til you make it is a common way to cope. Gradually you will crawl out of your funky skattebrained funk fest. And when you do you will look back and realize how strong you have been, are and forever will be. Love you Mel!