6'0 Tall wife to Muscle Man, mother of 3, full time career woman, with an addiction to running wherever her size 10's will take her.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Every new beginning...

Tall Mom Confessions/Thoughts:

1- I have been eating and eating, mostly Halloween candy and amazing meals provided by friends... this has resulted in my being 12 pounds OVER my goal weight.. I am embarrassed to admit it, because I should be more in control than this. I also know that stress and being emotional can cause weight gain, so I won't beat myself up too badly.

2- I have not run solo since my Dad died. Not sure if I am scared or what, but today I NEED to break the streak. I know that I NEED to run to help with healing.. and with #1 :)

3- I have 5 friends who are pregnant, 2 of which are prego with TWINS!! In fact my running buddy Zoe HERE is due today!!! Thinking of my friends and the miracle of life makes me smile and shopping for baby gifts is pretty darn fun too :) In honor of Zoe, below is a candid photo she took last year before a training run.
4- Speaking of babies. Today 5 years ago I became Tall Mom, well the Mom part anyhow. After nearly 20 hours of labor Little Stud#1 was born. Happy Birthday Buddy! I was iron deficient and sick for about 6 months following his birth from all the blood lost. URGH!! Below is the most UNATTRACTIVE family photo ever, but it was our first so I will post it :)
5- I am SAD that my Dad will not be there to celebrate any more birthdays. He loved to take pictures, give gifts, BBQ and just be around family. And he was an amazing Grandpa!! I am working through the grieving by remembering all the birthdays and holidays we DID get with him.. Thinking this way seems to help.
6- I passed my RRCA Coaching test, I could not have done it without Erika.. THANK YOU ERIKA!! I owe you big time.
  • 7- I have NO CLUE what I want to be when I grow up. My Big Girl job as an event planner is AMAZING, I am paid very well and have great company benefits.. But I am not sure it is what I am meant to do with my life. So I am making a list of all the things that I am interested in. If you have any ideas please chime in.
8- The mental side of Marathon training is my strength. I am thinking of creating a little class on it and seeing if Fleet Feet would let me coach the Marathon and Half Marathon training teams.. Of course I have no counseling degree or anything other than my own experience, I wonder if that would be frowned upon..hmmmmm
  • 9- I am EXHAUSTED!!! Totally EXHAUSTED! Ironically, because of the bullet above, more mentally than physically.
10- I have not been able to make it around to reply to all of the AMAZING comments. Your stories, positive compliments and kind words have truly helped me through this tough time.. Please know that I appreciate it and do not intend to ignore anyone.
  • PLEASE read the stories in the comments of my last post, they are GREAT!!
  • I will have a few product reviews soon, I am a little behind.

HAPPY TUESDAY!

29 comments:

Michelle said...

Congrats on passing your coaching test! You are going to be a fantastic coach from what I can tell.

I'm so sorry about losing your dad. I can't imagine how difficult that is but you are right in trying to focus on the time you DID have with him and all the memories you and your family have together with him.

Happy running :)

teacherwoman said...

You have a lot going on! Congrats on passing your coaching test, and happy birthday to your boy!

Terri said...

I am so sorry for your loss - I think that what you're going through is entirely normal, though - and I think your family photo is beautiful! You just brought a life into the world in that photo - how can it be anything but amazing?! :)

Denise said...

you've been through a lot, the weight gain can happen. you will get it back under control in no time.

congrats on passing your exam!

shellyrm aka jogging stroller mama said...

Backwards:

Don't worry about not making it around to everyone. who can?

This time of year and will all you are dealing with who wouldn't be exhausted?!!

I think my strength is the mental side of endurance too. My body screams NO!! but my mind say, yes.

I think your current big girl job would be amazing. Maybe doing it in a different venue? Good Luck!

Of course you passed!

Remembering will be the new sharing events with your Dad. It's just a different way of sharing.

I love the family photo! (happy birthday again to your biggest little one)

And I loooove that shot Zoe took.

You will get back into a groove and you will get that weight off. It's just temporary. Like many things in life. Enjoy a new beginning.

Angie Bee said...

I agree that you will make an excellent coach.
First family photos are always beautiful :)
Happy Birthday little man. Hope the cake rocks and your candle wish comes true!

Colleen said...

There are so many things that I want to comment on, but I think I can sum it up by saying congrats, happy birthday, chin up and a super big ((HUGS)).

:)

Amanda@runninghood said...

I feel kind of awkward posting on this since I don't know you yet and this is such a personal post. I'm sure it isn't always comforting to just have a complete stranger comment on something as huge in your life as losing your dad but my prayers do go out to you. My dad was a runner and he died when I was a kid. When I was a runner in college, I went through a lot of the grieving process that I never allowed myself before. Part of helping me through the process was my long runs by myself. I know it sounds weird, but there were many of those long runs through the fields of Iowa that I felt like my dad was running with me and telling me that he loved me. Many of those long solo runs came with tears and feeling so empty but they were also part of my healing process. Thinking of you! Amanda

Marlene said...

Don't stress too much about the weight. It will come off again. Sometimes other things just have to take priority.

Congrats on passing the exam!! Woohoo!!! Sounds like you have a really neat idea on a mental coaching class... hope you can run with it! :)

And Happy Birthday to one of my favourite little blond boys!

kimert said...

Congrats on passing the coaching exam! You're going to be a wonderful running coach! Wish you could be mine. :)
Happy Birthday to Little Stud #1!!

Molly said...

you have a lot going on here to comment on....
Congrats on passing the coaching exam...
Don't beat yourself up over the weight, it will come right back off....
try and relax and enjoy little Stud's bday....

: )

Velma said...

Mel - I feel the pain. I have been eating as well - lets work together OK!

marathonmaiden said...

congrats on passing the test! your dad, while not here presently, is totally proud of you :) keep your head up and i'm sending strength vibes so you get that solo run in soon

TMB @ RACING WITH BABES said...

Congrats Coach Mel! We need to tag team coach from opposite coasts! I think Fleet Feet would be making a huge mistake if they said no to you! Hugs Buddy!

RunKathyRun said...

Happy Birthday Little Stud #1 and congrats on passing your test! Take care of yourself and your family, everything else will follow.

Bethany + Ryan said...

great list with lots of emotions! :-D :-) :-/ :-( :'-(

Erika said...

Congrats on passing your test! i wish you lived closer, I would take your class:) And happy birthday stud #1! I know your dad is celebrating in heaven with you today!

Lisa said...

congrats on passing your test, what an accomplishment! Personally, I think your calling must be something related to running!
Happy Birthday to Little Stud #1! I hope you all have a wonderful day. I'd like to think that your dad is watching and is there with you.

Lesley @ racingitoff.com said...

#6. I am taking the class in January... I am mortified of not passing the test and having to tell everyone!!!

#8. *I* need you!!!!!! I think that would be awesome.

April said...

Happy Birthday to your little buddy!!
I think it's a fantastic idea to teach a class on the mental aspect of marathon training. So far, that has been the toughest part of my training! I'll volunteer to be your first student!;)

Deb said...

Happy Birthday to your little man.

You're getting through a rough time. You are such a strong woman.

MCM Mama said...

Congrats on passing the test. I still have a bit of time to finish mine. I think your class sounds like a great one.

Hang in there! You'll always miss your dad, but you will get back on track with your eating and running before you know it. {{HUGS}}

H Love said...

Congrats! You can be my coach anytime....maybe get me ready for my next marathon. I am having a horrible time trying to decide on where and when that will be?

Happy Birthday to little Stud...being a mom is such a gift. Praying for you!`

Michelle said...

Congrats on passing your exam! You will make a great coach!

Happy birthday to your little guy!

Don't beat yourself about the weight - you are definitely going through a lot. The weight will come off soon enough.

Sending hugs your way!!!

Jo Lynn said...

I'm really surprised you have gained 12 pounds because you looked quite thin in one of your recent photos. My thought was, "uh oh, she's not eating enough because she's grieving so bad. She's going to get too thin."
You'll be fine. ;)

Zaneta said...

congrats on passing your exam!! So exciting!! :D

Rene' said...

Yay on your coaching test! I think the mental marathon training would be great. I could have used some of that this past weekend.

Tricia said...

Congrats on your test and Happy Bday to your kiddo.

I LOVE the idea of a class on the mental part of marathoning.My first marathon is sunday and I'm spending this week mentally preparing. Ill be thinking about you as I run on Sunday. You've been a huge inspiration to me. Thanks

5 Miles 2 Empty said...

Ok coach, you need to turn your blog/running/coaching into a career. I also think you would make an amazing therapist. Just saying. AND an phenomenal Motivation Speaker. You're so amaizing! I am certain you are meant to inspire people!

And you will get back on track...Halloween is evil for the candy alone. =)